The older I become, the less I care about the New Year. It's true. In fact, this year Matt and I sat on the couch, ate way too many crackers and cookies and watched lame movies. And at 12:02am we realized it was 2012 and gave each other an obligatory kiss...it went like this:
Matt: It's 12012!
Me: Wow... lucky you looked at the clock when you did.
Matt: Happy New Year!
Me: I guess we should kiss, right?
Matt: Um, okay.
Me: Well, if you don't want to kiss me...
Matt: Oh Beth....
Needless to say, we smooched.
All of this is being said because, I used to be thrilled at the thought of the New Year and the promise of new beginnings. There really isn't anything like starting fresh... beginning again... setting goals. Except when March rolls around and you've already forgotten your resolutions. Whoops. I can't even remember what I hoped for last year... but what I can remember are the hopes that took place throughout the year... to survive! Just kidding. My life isn't nearly that dramatic.
So this year I thought about a resolution that would really matter. One that not only affected my own life, but the lives of those around me. A resolution without selfish gain. I thought about my responsibilities, the people I care for and who care for me in return. I thought about the people I live with and in spite of the fact that our lives look very different, we still share a home. My resolution needs to be an outward act of God's love for me, thus an outward act of love.
As I thought more and more... it came to me. My New Year's resolution is to be a happier mother. I'm not saying I'm going to be a better mom or a nicer mom, but a happier one. Less sulky, pouty and grumpy (this happens a lot, people). I'm going to appreciate my role as a mother and as a result, my day job will be happier. I know, I will fail some days... but overall, I want to be a person who shares joy with my husband, my kiddo and the people I share a home with. I am passionate about my role as a mother and my attitude should reflect that.
Here's to 2012... and being a mom who doesn't hate her life!