Friday, February 03, 2012

Chocolate Helps

I've been fighting a cold this week... and today I'm all hopped up on Dayquil. Girls' gotta keep up... and put my best foot (and face) forward. Tonight is date night with the hubs (we're going to a show at the Univ... so it's not officially a date... we don't have the luxury of real dates... although, we are going to dinner first so... that counts, right? I'll take what I can get).  I clean up alright... should have taken a before photo, because it was bad... real bad. Dirty hair, circles under the eyes... acne... oh gosh... it's just so bad right now.

To boot, I've got the blues again. Do any of you deal with depression?... 'Cause I feel like I'm the only one I know who goes through this 'ish every couple months. Granted, there are a grip of women out there who use the internet as a medium for all things depressing... but no one I know personally talks about their depression... if they have it...and reading depression blogs while depressed is a really bad idea. Things just feel low and frankly when I feel like this all I can focus on are the disappointments in my life. I wanna go back to comforts like family, life-long friends and chocolate. Seriously... chocolate helps. In all candor, I need to find a therapist. Ugh... that's a whole 'nother post.

So this is my face tonight. It's a good as it's gonna get. And frankly... it's not all that bad, considering what it looked like before. Just ask my roommates... poor souls.

Oh! And see those lovely scratches on my cheek... yea... those are claw marks given to me by my lovely child. He was pretending to be Sher Khan in a moment of high emotion. Let's just say it's not a moment I can talk about just yet.

Sigh....

5 comments:

  1. Hang in there, Beth! Enjoy your night on the town.

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  2. Beth,
    As someone who recently moved away from all family, friends and everything and anything familiar I am right there with you! After reading your posts I can say with confidence that our children are quite similar in their high energy spiritedness! We've been going to classes at the rec center for the past few months and while it has been wonderful to get out and communicate with other adults it has been difficult to create relationships when my child is throwing his body on the ground screaming and basically not allowing me to have a longer than 5 word conversation with someone. I too go in and out of low moments being so far away from everything we know so please know that if you ever want to talk I am here for you :) In fact this next summer we should try and figure out a way to get together!! After all we're only 8hours away :) Keep your head up Beth, you're an amazing mom, wife and friend! Things will turn around again :)

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    1. Elisabeth... thank you for your comment! I tend to be SO self-centered and forget I'm not the only one who feels like she's floating in a "new" city. I think of you often too and agree, we should meet up! Thank you for being a good friend.

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  3. If your depression spells are abnormal, then I'm abnormal too. I think I put on a good facade, but even with family close by, I just can't help but feel really down sometimes. Talking with friends help. I tend to unload the most on my woman's Bible study group. I'm the youngest woman with the rest 45 and older. It's nice having mature women who have been through it all to share and pray with. I guess it's my form of therapy.

    A therapist, or a mature friend/friends that you trust and love would be good people to talk to. Of course you can always talk to me. I may not be in the same situations, but I'm always available to listen :)

    I love you Beth. God put us in each other's lives for a reason.

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    1. Anna, I agree. God did put us together as friends for a very good reason. You are special to me, that's for sure. I love you my dear friend.

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