We've been home in Salt Lake for over a week and it's been nice. Not wonderful... because to be honest, I've been lonely. Yes... it happens every time we travel. I can't wait to get back to my own environment and schedule. But once we've been home for a few days, I grow bored and I miss the conversations I recently had with family and friends. I adore being able to touch and see the people I love. I suppose it's safe to admit I grieve all over again... but on a much smaller scale.
On a positive note, it's a beautiful thing to sleep in your own bed, make our own food and put my kid down for a predictable nap every day. I think having a child really helps me appreciate my own home even more. It's nice to have boundaries with my diet, sleep and responsibilities... no good excuses to slack off!
So in spite of the freezing temperatures, I decided we HAVE to get out of the house today. Lucas seemed to have some cabin fever and I just needed a change of scenery (how pathetic my life seems right now)... because I seriously haven't left the house in like... I don't know... four days! Ack!
So we bundled up.... and walked to the park. The sun was divine... in spite of the 19 degrees we were walking in. I walked a mile before stopping at the playground (mamma had to warm up!)... and then we played.
So after playground time, I walked another mile (to warm up again) and we passed a construction area. Lucas has been HUGE into trucks, construction and basically anything loud and large. So we stopped and watched the guys (and 1 gal) work for a bit. He's really developed his ability to notice surroundings and make observations based on what he sees. I love it!
|Lucas observing "People at Work!"|
|"People at Work!"|
Am I alone in my motherhood lonelies? Is it just because I'm in a city where I know very few people? How do other mothers deal with the lonelies? Or cabin fever?
*Please know, I relish being at home with Lucas and I see the big picture as a very beautiful thing. I am a very fortunate parent in that I can be with my son every day and I thank my lucky stars our life allows for this luxury.