Blogging about my lack of inspiration for life seems petty.
There has been much good in our home. Matt and I are slowly settling into our townhouse, in spite of the fact that we're already looking at other homes. We still have plans to find a home to own, but in that search we are attempting to feel cozy in our current situation. As we settle in, this place is beginning to feel comfortable, safe and even a little enjoyable.
everything now" has been a challenge and even though Matt is only in his first year at Ball State, he feels compelled to make this program a success now. The hours have been great and having Matt at home most evenings is a treat I've never known. Both Lucas and I look forward to his arrival in the evenings, which brightens every day for us.
Lucas seems happy too. He's our kid who has
always been fairly flexible, easy-going and joyful. With that in mind, we've been dealing with behavioral issues that are concerning. Having a strong-willed, smart and independent child is a gift... and a challenge. Always having been a firm parent, I find myself wondering why this little man of ours pushes boundaries he knows are limited. When I think on these things, I understand that we're in a new environment and testing limits is healthy. Our boy needs to be reminded that our family unit is the same and the way we love each other will remain unchanged. Though these times can feel like my undoing, I know they're crucial to him growing into the faith-filled, strong, young man he's meant to be.
Moving is an act that seems to affect all of us. The stress of feeling alone, missing "home" and changing environments affects all of us, and then like a wave, reflects off one another. We're all facing feelings of stress, insecurity and instability. This is a wonderful time of growth, challenge and development as a family, within our faith and how we operate as individuals. Though I find myself overwhelmed at moments with the consequences of our decisions, I try to remain level-headed in the fact that this work is not finished. We are only on the cusp of what lies ahead for our family. I know much good will be a result of this hard work.